凌乱的心情~~

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我，每天不停的写日记...
用手写啊...在网上写啊...
不停的写~~不停的写~~

有时候我在日记里哀求...
哀求什么??我不能说...

或许有时候...我在日记里说了真话~~

我被关起来了...

我尽力把那层透明的笼子打扮地漂亮一点~
把血的颜色再弄得干净一点...

有人在看我~~
就像注视一只没了毛的小畜生似的...

开始暴饮暴食...
吃很多很多东西~

胃病发作的时候痛得拼命揪住一切能揪的东西...
疼完对自己发誓说不吃了..~
别让情绪控制食欲...

可第二天还是老样子~~

我快被体内的占有欲杀死...
以及，所有想得到却未完成的~~

我知道...
我永远只能哭着毁灭它..~~

附带自己...

深深的寂寞...自悲...疲惫睡去...

忘记，并重复一切~~~

暧昧，让我找不到相爱的证据...

恍惚间...隐约想著...

应该...趁著年轻...和喜欢的人在一起~~

制造些比夏天还要温暖的回忆~

在这之前，我，到底是谁？

你，出现我眼前~~

一瞬间，一起都改变了~~~

突然想起F.I.R的歌...

【我们的爱】

好听~~有意思~~~

waiting you to say it again~

when the moment will become ~~

i won't let it left by the way~

if you are already missing me and dunno where are me...

so please........

dun come and find me back the world anymore~~

i come out from the world~~

is becoz me is not a STUPID GIRL~~

i got my brain~~

i know how to think about it...

and i will happy FOREVER...

from now... i will do for all the best for myself~~

and you....thanks you very very much....

so please.....leave out from my world~~

thats all~~~~

all of this words....

i juz say for myself~~

凌乱的心情...

今天的我...

依然是我的我...

并没有回去的念头...

离开，只因为不属于！